Not again!

Ok. Lastnight I was able to finally visit Second Life again and reconnect with some of my old Relayer buddies. It was great being able to catch up and see what they have been up to. I found out that one of the Relayer officers from URU made a relayer group in Second Life. Evidently I already knew about this because I was in the group and already an officer. lol. It has just been so long since I was in last I had forgotten. I always feel like such a nood when I go in there because it is so long between my visits. Anyway, an idea had been presented to me about how the relayers can still serve the URU community. This is something I have been racking my brains trying to figure out anyway. We all made such a good team and worked so well together, I have a hard time letting it go. I mentioned this possibility to a few of the relayers in SL when they reminded me about the relayer group in SL. They also wanted me to take the helm and lead them once again. I hesitate in doing this till I talk to the creator of the SL relayer group. After all, he started it. From what I have been told, he has no particular direction for the group and some of the members seem to want some sort of direction. I will talk to him as soon as I can. I don't want to walk in and take over. To be honest, I've never been completely comfortable being in a leadership role, but I will if see something that needs doing, if people want me to and if I see things being done in a way that, ultimately, will be harmful. Now I'm not saying I know what's best. On the contrary, people who have worked with me know I try to listen to everyone and take the advise of those smarter than I am. I am always second guessing myself about my decisions, but I feel I do my best and if that's not good enough, then someone else can do it! lol

You may be asking why I titled this entry as I did. Well, the last time I lead this group, I got really involved and it was stressful. Fun like I've never had before, but stressful. I have a hard time saying no. Especially to these people, my friends. They are all strong, capable people and so much fun to be around. Why they picked me, the first time, to lead them, I don't know. (Well, maybe because I started the group. When I started it, I had every intention of passing it on to someone more experienced and more capable, but the relayers wouldn't let me. lol.) Why they asked me to lead them again, I'll never know. But I am greatful for their confidence in me and for their friendship. They have helped me learn more about myself then anyone in RL ever has. They have given me a confidence that has carried over into my RL. One that others around me have noticed. I am becoming the person I always wanted to be, and for that I will be enternally grateful.

Today has been a good day. (I'm sorry if this entry rambles, but this is my thinking in the raw.) I talked with DMom and Booghin in SL about what the Relayers and Caver Criers might possibly do, and they seemed receptive to the idea. I talk to these two friends specifically. One because they were both there at the same time and two because they were both so helpful and in some cases instrumental in getting the groups started and keeping them going. I value their opinions more than I think they realize. Hopefully both groups will once again be of service to the URU community, and soon. :D

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Once again, I'm not going back over this entry. It is what it is.