This is scary.

Ok. This is my first blog. Well, I had one before, but that was so long ago I barely remember ever having it and it only lasted a few days. I'm not really sure what I should put here. My day to day life can be boring and monotinous. But I have a very active and, to me at least, exciting imagination. Helps sometimes when dealing with the kids. lol. I'm just not sure how well that would translate into the written word. So, What I'm asking for are suggestions. Do you want the real me? Or the me I imagine myself to be?

 Or did I just open up a can of worms I wish had remained closed? If you want the real me, that is what you will get. Along with all my moodswings and insecurities. If you want the me I imagine..... you never know what you'll get. lol

So, please give me some feedback and help me overcome another hurdle in my life. I have trouble letting people get close enough to see the real me. All my life I have had to say goodbye to people I got to know and love, never to see or speak to them again. So I built a defense mechinism to keep people far enough away so I wouldn't feel so bad when I had to leave. This is a hard thing to get over. Even harder, for me, is to share what is in my imagination. It has been my solice in times of depression and loneliness. For those wondering, I have imagined countless times what it would really be like to meet Atrus, Catherine, Sirrus, Achinar, and Yeesha. The young and older Yeesha. As well as living in D'ni before and after it's fall.

Ok. That is more than I meant to say, but oh well. As I said, you never know what you'll get. That is just a sample of both aspects of my split personalities. lol. If you would rather not hear either, just let me know and I willblog about the even more boring subject of......hmmmmm..... can't think of anything, but I'm sure I could if necessary. :) Enough of my current ramblings. Give me your feedback and we'll see what happens.